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What Freaks Me Out – Playing the Waiting Game with My Movie #indiefilm
Tuesday, May 7, 2013 at 2:24PM 
One of the things I’m most afraid of is not finishing my movie in enough time to make the deadlines for any of the 40+ film festivals where I want to submit it for a premiere screening; and completing this flick at all.
Post-production is taking longer than it took me to shoot this project, partly because I’m currently trying to shorten it up and make a version that meets my vision for it as closely as possible within the right amount of time. In the last few days, I’ve been back and forth through that old mindset of wanting to just throw a project aside and move on to the next thing – but -- there likely won’t be a next anything if I don’t first finish the one I’m working on now.
Speaking of the next best thing, there’s also nothing else for me to do if I’m not involved in some capacity of filmmaking. I mean, I went to school to study it, then started writing about it on the path to becoming one – or so I thought. No one can be a filmmaker without having made one, which means, until I actually have a movie in my hands that I can show to people, I suppose I’m just a writer – after all – that is what I do.
Today’s post is a mash-up of two prompts from Jenni, who wants participants in the 'Blog Everyday in May Challenge' to answer the question “What do you do?” and share the thing(s) you’re most afraid of. I could’ve just as easily written about other fears such as watching “Requiem for a Dream” or witnessing animals -- or people -- get hit by cars in oncoming traffic, but those things didn’t come to mind until I finished writing this post.
What do YOU do and what are the thing(s) you're most afraid of?
Reader Comments (6)
You can do it! I think it's awesome that you're currently working on your dream and goal, but I can understand how something "new and shiny" seems way more alluring that tying up loose ends. But like you said, it'll feel much more real to you once you have something tangible in hand that says, "Okay, this is who I am. Right here."
It would be a nightmare to do all that work and miss those festivals Nicole! I hope all goes well and I'll check the next newsletter for progress.
It would be a nightmare to do all that work and miss those festivals Nicole! I hope all goes well and I'll check the next newsletter for progress.
Just keep swimming...just keep swimming...YOU CAN DO IT! You have tenacity, an amazing work ethic, and unlimited creativity! You're perfect for this task! Congrats on being so close, now go finish! :-)
I'm most scared of my kids drowning, or falling on concrete and cracking their skulls open. I've watched it happen to them countless times in my nightmares...very vividly.
For myself, I'm immensely claustrophobic, and have a fear of drowning myself. Good topic. I could a week-long series of posts about these issues!
Tina @ Life is Good
No matter how stressful, finish the movie. If you don't you'll regret it one day.
Erika,
Thank you for the pep talk; I wonder if those new and shiny things are there to try to thow me off course or get me side-tracked on whatever it is I'm supposed to be doing. The coming weeks will bring me closer to figuring out how to get that tangible thing. Lately, I've started to think I need a vacation...to get away from it all and just chill out. That's probably not going to happen anytime soon though. A girl can dream.
Maurice,
Your point is well taken with regards to the work put in so far. I just thought it would get easier rather than more difficult. I guess I was kidding myself on that front but we shall see what comes of it all, eventually. Thanks for participating in this discussion. You rock!
Tina,
If only I could keep your new mantra in my head 24/7, that would make a difference in my outlook. Thank you for the boost in chutzpah for getting this project done to my liking. I hope the fear of drowning doesn't keep you away from swimming pools. The summers are hot...time to hit the water! :)
Claustrophobia is no joke, as I'm starting to find out after meeting more people these days who have it. I haven't grasped a full understanding of how strong it can be but I've seen grown women freak out at just the thought of being in closed spaces. I feel for you. Also, I cannot even begin to fathom the amount of fears that I would have if I had children. I've often stated how I would want to forbid my sons from playing any contact sports, for fears that they might be seriously injured. I didn't always have that position but after watching classmates and friends and family members get hurt over the years during sporting games, I decided that they were not the type of activities that I would want my sons to participate in. I'm sure that will (not!) go over well with them if I ever have any.
Sheena-kay,
You're sooo right about that (the regretting of not finishing this thing) and it's crazy because that's exactly why I started working on the movie last year when I wrote the script...I told myself that if I didn't finish the script and if I didn't make the film, then I would eventually look back and wonder "what if." Thanks for visiting, reading this post and sharing your response in this discussion.